I don’t know about anyone else out there, but I’m so glad to see the beginning of a new year. I’ve been mia on this blog and after much soul searching and prayerful consideration, I decided to get back on the horse. While we’ve experienced a multitude of blessings in 2018, our family has also endured tragedy and emotional instability. We lost our three dogs, gone through a parenting nightmare, and I’ve had my own internal fight with anxiety and depression.
I haven’t had the will or desire to write. Or to be my best self. As a result, I realized that I was slowly killing my spirit. I don’t want to do that anymore. I don’t want my grief and depression to keep me hostage. I don’t want to back out nights with my girlfriends because my anxiety is whispering in my ear. I want to LIVE. And I want to be my best self as I LIVE MY LIFE.
I have two resolutions for 2019. 1. Is to be at peace with the past (the death of our dogs, things with the kids, anything and everything that cannot be changed) and 2. Learn to love and take care of myself. It’s true that you cannot fill anyone else’s cup if yours is empty. I cannot be the mother I want to be for my kids if I am constantly putting my needs on the back burner. I cannot be the wife my husband needs me to be if I am literally stressing about his socks on the floor instead of the hamper everyday. Who cares about socks. It’s such a stupid and trivial thing to get upset over.
For anyone who’s had a trying year, I feel certain that better days are ahead in 2019. I hope that God blesses each of you with peace and love this year. Remember that we’re never ever truly alone when we keep God in our hearts!!